tommorrow

So tommorrow is one of the three big days that we have comin up. Tommorrow is my retrieval for the IVF. The whole process is fascinating. They will put me to sleep which I am lookin forward to its goin the first time I am goin sleep worth a damn in a while. Woo hoo They will go in wit a catheter and suck the follicles out, then microscopically put the eggs n sperm together. Then they watch them incubate for three to five days. Depending on the quality of the embreyos they will then transfer them back in. Within three to five days! These last few days have been very uncomfortable.. My belly is huge n sensitive. My boobs that is a whole nothin blog.. Anywho lookin forward to a good result (fingers crossed) ttys

sleep deprived

I know its been a lil while, soo sorry. Things have been crazy. Levi is leavin in the next few days, which is something that we have been thru before and yet never gets easier! This time Nathan is 2 1/2 and will know daddy is gone n I have to say thats what I am most worried about. His reaction to daddy not comin home from work each night. For me these deployments are difficult but bareable,(for the most part) Other then that I am in week three of my IVF cycle and I have to say that it is more intense then I anticipated. The injections are not as bad as I thought but the effects are pretty hard core. The sore boobs, the bloated belly,I already look eight months prego! the pressure n discomfort in my lower belly is painful to say the least. All of these things are normal, with the discomfort in my lower belly right now the injections are helping my body to produce follicles which contain the eggs, the goal is to get the eggs to be as mature as possible before retrieval day (which is hopefully this fri or sat.) By doin this my ovaries are literally 8-10 times there normal size,in combination with all the scar tissue i have from my two laparoscopys n my previous c-section,is where the discomfort comes in. The daily doc appts are gettin to be redundant but something I need to do during this process.. Levi is set to leave soon, so we are tryin to spend as much time together as possible. So far everything is goin well. No petty fights (knock ON wood) Today we are goin to see transformers, with some very good friends of ours, lacey n mike. Mike is also deployin with levi so lacey and I will be deployment buddies. LOL and my sister is also my deployment buddy! She likes mike n lacey and for a short time hangin with them seems to keep her mind off her daily life ( those that follow her blog know what I mean, the hubby being gone, the job search, and just the everyday life us army wives endure!) any who once again I should get my butt back to sleep. Thanks for following.. lol love u guys!~

levis leavin again

So levi found out today that he has been cleared to deploy.. Which is good, he gets to be the soldier he has been train to be. As far as Nathan n I go, I am a lil nervous as I normally am before he leaves. Did I mention that he is leavin sometime next week?! The timing is just bad with the IVF. But I am lucky enough to be with my family now. And got some great friends here as well, so I know everything will be ok. I gotta get back to bed.. Get my sleep while I can.. thanks guys!

sick babies suck

last night was horrible my son had horrible stomach pains all night which meant cryin n pain for him n fustration n no sleep for me. The whole time he screamed in the same bed as my husband n i were sleepin in my hubby didnt move or nothing. I know he heard him because it was that bone chillin scream.. Nathan n i went to safeway, in search of some childrens pepto, but of course safeway was closed so it ment i had to go to walmart with my cranky 2 year old at 1 am~ grr!! I literally slept an hour.. I am miserable..
On another note, we are in the middle of our IVF cycle things are gettin to be a lil nerve racking. Just doin the injections, hopin that everything will work out. It sounds bad, I am soo thankful to have Nathan, he truly is the light of my life, but part of me feels incomplete. Please keep us in your prayers n your fingers crossed. thanks time to relax n maybe nap!~

enjoyin a saturday with my boys

so its another saturday with my boys, it was pretty good, went for acupunctuer this am, they say it helps increase the chances while doin IVF. I am a lil skeptical but at this point anything that will help get us to our goal.. I will try. Other then that went to a birthday party of one of my friends sons. It was pretty cool, except nathan wasnt feelin well. It was a lil of a rough day, i am hopin that he doesnt get sick.. i am goin watch a movie with my hubby.. n then get to bed.. borin post i know.. but lol

ni night

one day closer

so today was a pretty good day, got alot done. my hubby was srp-ing today n for my fellow army wives i am sure u are familiar its just another step closer to deployment. Well he was put on some meds a month or so ago for insomnia, n because of the meds they said he is now non deployable. Which to many would be great news... My hubby is a soldier n we have all been mentally preparing for him to leave again. He is currently on rear d, which he absolutley hates.. He just wants to go be with his guys! do what he has been trained to do. I was a little relieved when he told me, but then I was taken back by the news bc I had it in my head this was a done deal. I am proud of my hubby n the soldier he has become. I know its in his blood to wanna be there with his guys. So for now the deployment is on the back burner, he is goin go to the Colonel and see if he can get it waived.. As for me today was a pretty good day, just spent it with my stink pot! gotta go watchin Robots.. lol I will keep you posted

havin fun

ok so once again yesterday was crazy busy, which I am really starting to like. Got up in the am, my friend lacey came over to help me do my hair n makeup for fam pics.. It was the first time we took a portrait since Nathan was 3 mos old.. (bout damn time) lol We get there and of course Krista an old friend of mine does a kick ass job... they were awesome. Looking at the family we have I began to think that if for some reason the IVF thing doesnt work I am incredibly fortunate to have a great husband and a beautiful son... I have always known that but I felt like our family wasnt complete.. But if its Gods will to have nathan then I think I will be alil sad but will focus on the blessing we do have. We are still goin thru with the IVF infact i started my injections a few days ago, n so far sooo good!!! Please keepe your fingers crossed! anywho I have to get to cleanin the bathrooms.. I know u are jealous, lol Thanks for reading~ see you again soon!!! xoxoxo